Whhooaa Angst!!11
Man, life is so shitty/pissy/wtfishappening and teenage-angsty now, thus the reluctance to blog.
I haven’t had a life for the past 6 months.
I swear, either I’m getting old fast, or school leeches energy off us like hungry evil sponges.
At the end of the day, I want to do nothing but diesleep in bed. Or alternatively, type groggy talk with people on msn since I’m unable to hold a proper conversation with them in real life as my lack of energy disallows me to do so.
I’ve never felt so drained compared to all my drain-niness for the past 14 years combined. My eyebags are dragging on the ground and at the end of every lesson, I have the furious urge to stab a pencil or two into the teacher’s eye for boring/wasting my life for 2 or 3 periods straight.
It’s actually quite fun when you’re learning something new. But lessons which give no benefit really irk me.
I realise how agitated I get when I’m bored, it makes me feel like tearing myself apart [er, kidding]
So it’s a vicious cycle. My friends get their energy vacuumed out of them as well, therefore that leads to -> No hanging out.
And what happens when you don’t hang out with your friends? You become a nerd. Or in other words, a brainwashed kid of Singapore. But what other choice do you have?
In addition to feeling like a flobby french fry, loss of a few friends due to mere distance [also because we're all busy with school work or busy being tired from school work. The source? School], realising how life is oh-so-meaningless and being a crazy detail-obsesser/analyser makes it worse.
And by hanging out with friends, I mean Lizard and gang.
But we only meet up properly every what, once a month? Or even longer than that.
Dunno, classmates seem so difficult to bond with. The only interactions which take place are either talking funny crap, teasing or insulting.
It’s fun, but only momentarily. You realise that you don’t really know them anyway.
Sometimes being around more people makes you feel lonelier.
Can you get detention by skipping detention?
Aww.. don’t sad sad la..
Lonely ar? Friends don’t want to go out ar? Come find me lor.. =P
Or go shop shop alone also can..
Learn how to indulge and be happy like the bimbos..
Don’t worry.. you have a brain.. you won’t be one(bimbo).. XD